Fat-igue

Today I ate a small bowl of lentils and drank a glass of tomato juice. In the evening, my mum was on my case about how little I was eating, so I chewed a few handfuls of peas and a slice of apple in front of her, then pretended to eat a granola bar as well. It's so annoying - I can never win with her!

Too much, I know. I feel weak and disgusted. (Remember, no physical activity today whatsoever, because the sleeping pill I took last night is making me a bit drowsy and lethargic.)However, there is a bright spot in today - I weighed myself pre-eating and I've dropped to 158 lbs. Finally, under the hideous 160! I fully expect that by the end of this week I'll get to below 70 kilos.

Very tired, so won't write more. Am trying to take my mind off food by watching From Hell (all the guts and gore make me not want to touch the smorgasbord of tempting foods in the fridge). After this, I'm going to blast the A/C all the way up so that I burn more calories at night. Maybe surf through a few thinspo sites (I like skinnyvscurvy) and sleep. Tomorrow I'm spending the night at a friend's, so I expect I won't update till the day after. But don't worry, I certainly shan't be stuffing my face - they're skinny minnies and I shall get there too!

Au revoir for the present.