Dear whoever stumbles upon this blog in the Internet wilds of nowhere, if such there may be:
I have not died. Nor has an intervention been held pour moi - please, I lost a lousy 15 lbs and then stopped losing. And then I gained it all back. So, no, so far I am only Anorexic, Interrupted. But I HAVE been reading some other ana blogs of late, and I realized two things:
a) A lot of them start-stop intermittently.
b) I need the help of a daily forum in order to lose weight, even if no-one but me is actually on the forum. I am not ashamed to come back here anymore. Ana is a long journey. I can't rush it, and it feels good to be back, just like trying on a pair of old, comfortable cotton shorts you wore in high school.
So I've been hugely busy applying to grad school, which starts in August. This summer I have to be thin. Thin, or, well, dead. But I just can't seem to lose weight. I -ugh- keep eating. And being at home all the time means I'm bored and not burning a single calorie. Thus my weight is -shush - a Fatty Lumpkin weight of 163.5 lbs as of this morning. BUT, but I've joined the gym. And I faithfully promise to recommit to ana, and not eat, and write down every single thing that I do happen to eat in this blog. Because, you see, all the time we were apart, I've been dreaming of ana. And to tell you the truth, I think she's been dreaming of me too.
Love to all the skinny bitches in cyberspace (with some new off the racks thinspo just to show them I care). XOXO
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